Public Invasion Your Not A Slut, I Promise

Again, I got better, stronger. In eighth grade, in my Humanities class, we were given an assignment that usually terrified introverts like me: We had to memorize our favorite poem and recite it to the class. Even more terrifying than public speaking, somehow, was the thought of choosing something as my favorite and presenting my own idiosyncratic tastes to my peers. But I chose to read "Never Is a Promise," by the poet Fiona Apple. Over the years it had become my favorite song on Tidal, and I didn't have to do any extra work memorizing it since I already knew it by heart. Apple wrote this elegiac, scorched-earth piano ballad when she too was a teenager, about her first real break-up. But I hadn't had a boyfriend yet, so in my mind I directed its spirit of dissent towards the most narrow-minded of my enemies: "You'll never see the courage I know, its colors' richness won't appear within your view." My recitation went well, and I was proud of myself afterwards, but I noticed everyone else picked what the textbooks had told us were poems, Shakespearean sonnets or neatly rhyming couplets. It felt like a small act of bravery to stand in front of my classmates and assert that a song could be a poem, too. Maybe I was a little bit strong after all.

Sweet Meghan,I have been through similar to what your going through. Of course, being in the public eye I can only imagine the additional humiliation that you are suffering. It feels like death! It has been over 9 years since it happened to me and my family. There are days when it feels like yesterday that what I thought was my life was utterly destroyed. I chose to stay in my marriage and my husband sought help for his demons. He was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. In NO way is this an excuse for his slimy behavior or the slimy person who was well aware that he was a married man. However, it was an answer. Acting out inappropriately is an action of an underlying issue. You are right and it is not your fault! DO NOT let anyone tell you any different!!! Please take care of yourself and your beautiful family.

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This too shall pass. You will feel whole again, with or without him. You need time to heal and figure out if you can ever trust him again. If you cannot, that is ok. You are a strong lady with a good head on your shoulders. You will be ok. Lean on friends and family. I promise you will be ok. There may be some sort of hidden blessing in disguise that you cannot see now but will become clear later.

As a fellow twin mom and St. Louis mom I enjoy following you on social media. Sadly we also have cheating spouse in common as I have been where you are and know the terrible emotions you are dealing with. My husband began his cheating both emotional and physical when I was pregnant with my own twins. I did not learn about it until several years (and women) later. Mine was also revealed very publicly but in no way at the level you are dealing with. My heart truly aches for you. I will tell you that my children, my friends and my family have helped me work through it but even though my husband has since taken his own life, you better believe it still makes me cry or fills me with anger on any given day. Hats off to you for hitting it head on. Prayers of strength for you and your sweet babies.

Whatever it is that you ultimately decide for your marriage and family, I hope you do it knowing your full worth as a woman, mother and wife. You are so brave to be sharing this all publicly and stronger than you realize now. Take all the time you need now to heal and lean on your supporters, that is what they are there for. Time away from your kids now to focus on the issues will lead to a stronger Mommy that will once again be able to fully focus on them. You deserve peace and happiness too.

I am so sorry you are going through something g so hurtful so publicly. I have followed you through your ivf Instagram because I have gone through it right after you & you helped me so much. Wishing you & your family the time & space to process & heal.

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